Freestyle Week 14
I took my I-Search down. I’d just as soon it not appear anywhere. It isn’t that I’m not proud of the paper. I think it met all of the requirements and specifics. My problem with it is a personal one.
I don’t think anyone that knows me doesn’t know how I feel about EMCC. I’ve made that pretty clear…half of it anyway. There’s the whole other side that doesn’t get any sort of treatment from me and I don’t like that about the paper.
I’m not the kind of girl to blame others even, maybe especially when blame belongs there. I’m of the belief that it’s my responsibility to work towards change and growth without calling names. I’m not an angry kind of warrior. I don’t think that’s reflected in my paper.
I pick my battles so carefully. I really do. When I pick one, I play it like a chess game whether it’s a 3 year old, a teenager, a friend or a system.
Ultimately, when I set my sights on a goal or an injustice I don’t look for someone else to fix it and if I can’t see it all the way through, I have to draw a line for myself and decide if it’s a battle that I’m going to continue. This battle with EMCC for student rights and administrative responsibility is one that I’m going to concede for now. I’ll let my resistance build a bit. I need some peace.
I’m not saying that it is a battle that I’ll never declare but it isn’t being declared today. I’m tired. I want some sunshine, I want to swim, grill tuna steaks outside and sleep with the sound of the loons. I want to be done with school and just exist. No plans further than that.
I don’t feel right about firing that shot. Gonna unload and go home.
I don’t think anyone that knows me doesn’t know how I feel about EMCC. I’ve made that pretty clear…half of it anyway. There’s the whole other side that doesn’t get any sort of treatment from me and I don’t like that about the paper.
I’m not the kind of girl to blame others even, maybe especially when blame belongs there. I’m of the belief that it’s my responsibility to work towards change and growth without calling names. I’m not an angry kind of warrior. I don’t think that’s reflected in my paper.
I pick my battles so carefully. I really do. When I pick one, I play it like a chess game whether it’s a 3 year old, a teenager, a friend or a system.
Ultimately, when I set my sights on a goal or an injustice I don’t look for someone else to fix it and if I can’t see it all the way through, I have to draw a line for myself and decide if it’s a battle that I’m going to continue. This battle with EMCC for student rights and administrative responsibility is one that I’m going to concede for now. I’ll let my resistance build a bit. I need some peace.
I’m not saying that it is a battle that I’ll never declare but it isn’t being declared today. I’m tired. I want some sunshine, I want to swim, grill tuna steaks outside and sleep with the sound of the loons. I want to be done with school and just exist. No plans further than that.
I don’t feel right about firing that shot. Gonna unload and go home.
posted by millay at 4:17 PM
2 Comments:
Funny to have read this before having read the actual finished isearch, or not so funny. Too bad the isearch didn't resolve the EMCC thing. Anyway, this is a well-spoken temporary truce declaration.
Do you think I should leave it up, snowflake? Curious about how it made you feel because I'm outta here in a few days and I feel a little like I'm abandoning other students.
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